Dream of the Month (March 2012)
- Title: I Can't Do My Assignment
- Date of the Dream: 2012 (mailed Monday, 20 February 2012)
- Dream: I'm taking an art class, and leave the room to use the bathroom. When I come back, the instructor has already given the assignment out for that session.
I plead with the instructor to tell me what she told everyone else, but she grabs me like a child having a tantrum and says: "Chill out, Granny!" Ashamed, angry with her, I go back to my place at the table.
People seem to be making pieces with quotes or song lyrics on them. I try to find a good, stiff backing for mine, but all of paper is too thin or flimsy. On supply shelves, I can see some paper that might work, but I'm not sure we're allowed to use anything but what's already on the table.
I timidly start looking through the paper stacked on the shelves, but I wake up before I can decide whether to risk taking any of it.
- Significant life event: A friend of mine has been out of touch for several weeks. She's been having issues, I've been trying to help her, and the fact that she seems to be deliberately out of contact is worrying me.
- Personal concerns/issues: I'm doing a creative writing challenge in the form of a gift exchange, and my recipient has given me very little info about what she'd like. It's hard for me to write these things withut some idea of what the recipient has in mind.
- Associations: The past couple of years I've let me hair go to its natural gray. Sometimes I feel a little self-conscious about it. Also, my friend who's out of touch usually helps read over the things I write. Without her, I'm wondering whether I can continue to be creative in the same way.
- Category: None Apply
- Pen Name: chomiji
Dr. Holloway's Comments:
Striking Characteristics: Impossible assignments often reflect frustration with a sense of calling that is unspecified but powerful.
It sometimes feels like the Universe is playing a cruel game of keep-away. You get tapped on the shoulder, filled with hungry fire to leap into the next passion, but crucial information on the nature of your work or passion is not provided. All you get is the sense of urgency. Nobody knows why life works this way; it does seem inefficient and baffling.
The bias of the teacher suggests the dreamer may be unfair to herself around this issue. She is chided like a fool, made to feel childish yet too old, and collapses, returning to her place.
To create what comes next in life, she needs to firm up her backing and support her own theme. She must leave her assigned seat, ignore the naysayer, discover where she stored her strength and begin crafting the next chapter of her life. A hand-made life is often quite different from the life your friends create; inner permissions must allow for divergence and originality. The second half of life is prime territory, it is where the plot truly becomes interesting, rich, and fulfilling. Yet, it is the time when many of us feel we have missed the boat, or become entangled in mistakes. To claim our mission and free our boldest abilities, we do have to break a few rules and firm our resolve. Fall in love with this chapter of your life, and follow that passion. It will take you where you need to go.