Dream of the Month (November 2010)
- Title: Finding Myself Back At College
- Date of the Dream: 2010 (mailed Thursday, 28 October 2010)
- Dream: A couple of nights ago I had another episode of a recurring dream that has been a regular installment for a couple of years, but more intense this past year. I find myself back at my old university and classes are about to start in a couple of days. I am shown around my living quarters. I am surprised at how large the apartment is, even though there are about three beds to each room. In every dream, I am the roommate who arrives first and can choose the biggest bed or the best room. I discover I even have a car.
In the dream I had this week, I was being shown around what would be my shared apartment. The attendant showed me the beds I could choose from; two cots or a queen sized bed. I chose the queen. I had forgotten to bring my makeup case and my church dresses with me to college. I was aware that my little girls were with me, although I did not see them. I wondered what I was going to do about not having any makeup
- Significant life event: My husband battles depression. Things have recently come to a head. When it was really bad for him I began experiencing chest pains and my old Spasdic Colon pains that I haven't had for years. I began contemplating separation and going back to school.
- Personal concerns/issues: see above
- Associations: In the past 3 or 4 years I have devoted a lot of my time to "lifelong learning" - reading books on all topics, as well as trying to maintain a creative-expression journal. I wonder if it is just a reaffirmation of my attitude of constant learning and self-discovery.
- Category: Recurring
- Pen Name: Chameleon
Dr. Holloway's Comments:
Striking Characteristics: Positive dreams about returning to school suggest an opportunity to complete something important in life.
College represents a course of study, but it also promises a metamorphosis. This theme suggests an invitation to what came early in life, but which was denied or postponed. The dreamer has the right and luxury of selecting her own inner posture toward this shift in her consciousness (the bed in which she will sleep) as well as the ranking of importance in her psyche that she will grant to her own adventure. By choosing the queen sized bed, she is embracing the fascination that beckons to her: this adventure will have room to flourish in her psyche. She will not be stingy with this passage; it will literally be the territory in which she restores herself. Her young daughters may represent earlier versions of her younger self: hinting that she is about the business of making an incomplete story whole in modern time. One by-product of deep changes in the psyche can be a broadened capacity to create a livelihood (the car). This is not the purpose of her adventure, but it may well be an unexpected gift. Finally, she has not brought with her anything that might be used to spruce up her decision to make it socially palatable to others. She needs neither formal dresses or make up on this adventure! She has only to embrace the inner journey, as she is doing, to allow it is outer counterparts to harmoniously unfold.