Dream of the Month (January 2010)
Dr. Holloway's Comments:
Striking Characteristics: Hospital settings often reflect the need to attend to some wound of the spirit or emotions.
This dream shows the factors that have inhibited this dreamer’s healing of a wound, and suggest what action or posture might prove more effective for her.
Although she is aware of a call coming in (perhaps a calling) she tries to avoid it because she does not feel quite right. Many of us avoid our calling because we believe that we should feel somehow empowered or invulnerable around it. Precisely the opposite tends to be true. The closer to the heart our calling lies, the more complex and inhibited we may feel towards it.
This dream implies that life force (blood) is not circulating as it should, and that more aggressive aliveness and action are called for if this wound is to be healed. The dreamer apparently needs a more open conduit for inspiration as well as more aggressive action to feel whole and solid again.
When we postpone a calling or avoid responding to inspiration, we accumulate fear, which can build up and turn a reasonable impulse to explore and express talent into a barbed-wire fence that wounds us anew each time we approach it. This is how creative work or the completion of an accrediting project turn into monsters in the psyche. The dread of our own self-expression then maintains the monster guarding the gate. We are drained by this arrangement (notice the poor circulation of blood and life force).
Finally, the dreamer must reject the “blocks” to her creativity, and stop wasting them. (What we vomit in dreams is the toxin or the inhibition that is antithetical to our healing and progress). The need to express what is trying to come alive through us is a very real and often sacred impulse. This does not mean we must be foolhardy, grandiose or expect an avalanche of wealth. Only that we should answer the call, let the inspiration find form, and freely share the gifts we have to uplift the world as they may. Don’t expect it to be easy or fluid as you move through your blocks and break the barriers. Just do it, and trust. Eventually, the process will become lighter, free from fear, and filled with celebration.