Dream of the Month (July 2007)
- Title: The Apple Pie Toilet
- Date of the Dream: 6/14/2007 (mailed Thursday, 14 June 2007)
- Dream: I am with an old college friend of mine. (In real life, this person currently lives nearby with her four children.) I can't remember what we're doing, but I'm feeling like I have done something wrong in my parenting skills compared to her. I have a 4-month-old baby.
I excuse myself to use the bathroom, and instead of going to the bathroom and using the toilet, I go into the kitchen and urinate in a really delicious-looking, big apple pie. While I'm urinating, I realize what I'm doing and am horrified at myself...why on earth was I doing this? But I somehow know that I've been doing this all day long, and it feels so much better than going to the bathroom in a regular toilet. However, I realize that perhaps people have been eating out of the pie...I look down and the pie looks normal, as if it has absorbed all of the urine. I finish, and then dump the pie into the garbage disposal, worrying that someone will come in and ask me why I'm getting rid of a perfectly good pie.
- Significant life event: Nothing significant.
- Personal concerns/issues: I've been extremely tired from the combination of working full time and being up at night to breastfeed my son. Last night (before the dream), my husband volunteered us to go to a small block party with our neighbors, and I had to send him by himself because I was so tired and wanted to sleep instead.
- Associations: I do often compare myself with the other mothers around us--I am a working mother in the midst of almost ALL stay-at-home-mom's. Somehow I feel like my actions in the dream reflect how I feel guilty at not being able to be as good of a mom as my neighbors, and I worry about what they think of me.
- Category: Anomalous
- Pen Name: RW
Dr. Holloway's Comments:
Striking Characteristics: Dreams of elimination sometimes illustrate the tensions that impact self-expression, the feeling of not having an emotional outlet or a lack of private time for oneself.
Shocking dreams can be seen as messages with an exclamation point. This dream suggests a frustration with a traditional approach, symbolized by the apple pie. The dreamer feels relieved to urinate on the pie, and then is horrified that she may have fouled things up for those around her, almost as if she has perpetrated a crime. The dream seems to highlight a conflict. The dreamer can be herself, or the folks around her can have pie: that is, whatever they have come to expect, but the illusion is that it has to be one or the other. The dreamer, however, is instinctively doing the right thing: she is throwing away the mold and starting over. The pie, the old way, will never be sufficiently creative and unique to fit her circumstance or her needs, her life as it is. She is throwing away a view of her life that is too confining and will be free to create a shape that has room for her needs, her circumstances, and embraces and respects the needs of others too.